I start composing 8am in October 6th, 2017. Using, for the first time a split keyboard and my malware cleaned ASUS computer – which is really slowing me down; keyboard not doing as I hoped in compensating for my severely neuropathic fingers. I will persist for awhile. I am also initiating composing directly on my blog in WordPress, although it lacks the outlining and full character features of WORD or NoteMap. I regret not having attended to my more immediate needs for seafing composing sems.

For two weeks I have been delaying initiating this essay. Primarily because of multiple distractions at family and home, in addition to my body deterioration and accelerating senility. Secondarily, because of the absence of feedback from my audience to my earlier posts and emails.

Earlier this morning, I lay in bed listening to a CD, which I had borrowed from the library, thinking it was a spy novel. Instead it was the memoir of Michael V. Hayden‘s lifetime in USA Intelligence Agencies, including Director of both the NSA and CIA, entitled: Playing to the Edge. As I listened, this morning, there arose a serendipitous insight that here was a powerful exemplar of the interaction of complex systems development within unconscious epistemes. Last night, after I discovered it wasn’t a novel, I had debated whether to continue listening. Then, I only questioned whether Hayden really believed all he was writing about, and whatever he was hiding was for national security (as he admitted in the book’s prologue). [So far, every fourth word I type is mis-spelled and I correct, slowing this process down, considerably. Using a new keyboard so as to accommodate my neuropathic fingers.]

This morning, as I finished the second disc and started the third, I became convinced of Michael Hayden’s deep sincerity and “patriotism”, his strong professional commitment, but masked by an episteme blocking alternative systems-at-play from his attention. I do not believe he gave any serious consideration to “false flag” of “inside job” “conspiracies” about the 911 phenomenon. He was on the “right side” in the battle against “evil”; yet was deeply concerned about the forced choices he had to make between “security” and “liberty”, including limited relevance of the US Constitution and formal bureaucratic processes that handicap “what is right”.

However, what hit me strongest this morning, and drove me to this interface , after warming a cup of old coffee, was the awesome detail of intelligence systems and legal systems explicated, and how the systems needed to be radically changed because of the continuing waves of technological innovation. Hayden is forthright in reporting intelligence failures (but not all, from my analysis). I expect the rest of this book to further illustrate the psychology of epistemes influencing human invention of systems models to “explain experience”. {Hayden on Comey’s firing by Trump.}

It is now three days later. Hayden’s memoir captured my full attention to the very end. Although we inhabit quite different epistemes, I expect we would have positive dialogs. From my reading, I don’t believe Michael is capable of intentional deception, as I am also so “handicapped”.

Person’s can be intentionally deceptive and still believe they possess the truth; as they justify their deception as necessary for the “greater good”. “Anything goes” to fight “evil”.

I won’t attempt a detailed analysis here. Michael’s episteme doesn’t permit his nation to be “bad”, although it can make mistakes, many of which he can identify. Thus, “terrorism” is a real threat that must be comprehended (as a system) and opposed (by all means necessary). He is well aware of the delicate decisions that must be made – from his comprehension of complex cultural/social systems (for which he had experienced a great variety, in his career).

What was also informative, was his “opinion” of those in the US government and press who, he claimed (and I am tempted to believe him) grossly distorted his positions so as to attack their (distorted) views of the the CIA and Intelligence, in general – to justify their own epistemes. Over the years I have carelessly accepted these claims, even when I was well aware of the need for secrecy and even covert actions, in the “real-world”. Too many humans are fake purists. Many persons Michael criticizes I had respected unconditionally. I would need to hear their “side”; but my approach is not to blame anyone. We are all trapped in our systems-within-epistemes. I wonder how Michael Hayden views Donald Trump and the confused GOP, today?

Yet, what is important about Playing to the Edge  is  how it illustrates the contrast between societal systems and hidden epistemes. I wonder how others might so interpret this book?


SYSTEMS as Conceptual Schemes

Systems thinking models reality as having a distinct (and real) separation between a material entity (the system) and its material environment.  A whole “… system of systems of systems …” remains pure metaphor.

Systems thinking can get very complex, involving nested subsystems and components, in networks and holarchies.

I prefer to work with four models: systems, networks, holarchies, ecologies. In this perspective, I restrict “system” to label a network of components (treated as objects with properties), with lawful relationships between components (including subsystems, which can “share” the same components), all embedded in an “environment”. Such “systems” are components of networks, holarchies and ecologies.

That our material reality actually “contains” these distinctions and separations is unknown. These distinctions “exist” in the mind/brains or “wrlds” of each human person; although most persons aren’t so concrete, or don’t consistently apply the “systems perspective”.

That is, a “systems perspective” of reality is a recent innovation within humankind’s emergence. It has not yet spread to the majority, and has mixed applicability among those who claim to be “systems thinkers”.

Many professional “systems scientists and philosophers” are dogmatic in their belief in the material existence of systems and are oblivious to the role of epistemes. Michael Hayden may be an exemplar of this.




I am growing into an envy for the lifestyle of Stephen Hawking.

I see the acceptance of handicaps and the new/nu freedoms/competencies released.

new = freedoms known but blocked or undeveloped
nu = freedoms discovered, unknown before, potentials, ready for actualization.

As I elder, more and more attention/time/energy is devoted to my disabled, uncomfortable, and distracting body. Less and less attention/time/energy is devoted to creating/composing/doing relevant/rewarding/enjoyable “activities”.

Larry’s condition as of October 2017.

lifetime lack of mental imagery in all sensory modalities

total absence of any sensory remembrances of past events, even of a moment ago
memories only of conceptualized “report”of a supposed objective event
distant past events “remembered” only as prior conceptual “memories”
specific locations trigger such “memories” of events occurring at those locations (almost always embarrassing and sexual)
zero sensory imagination, no visual thinking
occasional sub vocalization – always emerges from subconscious
writing/typing emerges
sometimes sub vocalization accompanies emergence of symbols on screen, often in-process editing – grammar correction or generalization

lifetime on autism spectrum

inadequate relations with fellow humans
frequent lack of interest in persons, forget their existence, no concrete memories of past encounters
avoidance of realtime encounters – both phone and F2F, email OK – but forget to reply if not immediately
HOWEVER, was comfortable lecturing to classes of students.
HOWEVER, will sometimes speak up after lectures or in meetings, often “politely confrontational”.
feel lost and “out-of-place” at-parties and in-crowds.
procrastinate making phone calls
HOWEVER, can enter long dialog with strangers on topics of interest – sometime I enter “lecture/sharing mode”.
Unsure about Larry, Confident about nuet.
quick trigger to SHOUTING when dissed, limited to “family”

Larry’s basic physiological subsystems are healthy.

Minor issues:

Cervical spine in bad shape, not causing symptoms expected.
Colon polyps, occasional blood in stool
Flap between juncture to stomach/lungs collects food, resulting in coughing when eating
Take meds for

thyroid – gland removed at age 15
stomach (potential ulcers)

Cancer (1997, 2011) in remission.

Crippling arthritis of joints and cervical spine.

fingers and hands severely deformed, no blood indication of rheumatoid
elbows are bone on bone, replacement only option
left arm useless for most activity – extreme pain
recent problem is hard upper left arm muscle – “charlie-horse”, docs ignore

Neuropathy of hands and feet.

Hands feel stiff and enlarged, feeling of fingers on fingers “strange”
compulsion to “stim” fingers on fingers, even using rubber finger tips

Unstable walking

need to focus and slow down
drift, stumble on rough ground, many corrected potential falls
a few actual falls, bruises only
2011 test revealed a 17 degree shift in vision of “front”, never did correction exercises

Inadequate exercise, muscles weak

weekly guided yoga-stretching, online – – for 10+ years
can’t motivate to practice between weekly sessions
practice yoga-stretching only when “waiting” for appointments

Lack of fingers/hands/arms strength and dexterity.
Eye focus ok at all distances, corrections needed for best clarity
Hearing aides needed for low volume, audio perception/discrimination weak
No teeth, slurred speech – slow eating (helps keep weight stable)

Dementia re memory and spontaneous creativity

Functions in environment as S/R mechanism

INCLUDES stimulus when reading (self/others) and sustained focus
INCLUDES stimulus of many significant insights
WANDER between episodes of focus
less frequent insights or motivation to read/write when wandering

some memory/thinking on amplification of lifelong issues
forget most of sems/docs I have written, surprised to discover them
no recall of specifics of anything I have written
remembrances limited to generalities, often awed at details rediscovered

Liberated mind, beyond normal human


Larry/nuet’s Dream Future

Like Stephen Hawking, Larry’s body is maintained by competent-teams.

nuet is galdeed as best possible, seafed by a system-of-teams.

Larry/nuet = Larry is body, nuet is sum-off patterns in body/brain /mind, an inner “wrld”, the immediate correlate of all experience.

galdee = grow/adapt/learn/develop/evolve/emerge

seaf =support/enable/augment/facilitate

nuet becomes a tool of emergent humanity.

The technologies for Hawking/Victor are developed for all humans, as “life extension”.